Dearest Sister ~ ~

Well P. wanted me to respond to your sweet letter, I believe he thought, as I come from Los Angeles and am here in Glastonbury on sabbatical as you know doing my personalized Work, which is deep multidimensional research and experiences of Divinity, of which I am channelling my awareness into a book project.

I wish to only offer my own perspective of what is going on energetically on
the whole, as it relates to my own expression of the mythic life.  I believe
you may find some parallels, but you also may not.  Yet, as my sensay (a kahuna
and a ninjinsu black belt---who initiated me in Mind over Matter 'tests'), said
to me once:  "take what you want from the buffet of knowledge and insights
offered to you" onto your PERSONAL 'plate' of truth, you don't have to eat the
whole dish or even sample it if you don't chose to!!!  Indeed, for each of
ours' piece is a portal to the One Way, but each pathway and each facet of the
collective 'diamond body' is as a snowflake of it's own geometrical balance, of
different elementals and combinations of Self, of Source, of Star Stuff ....
this complexity of alchemical creation is indeed the Essence of the Grail we
seek.  It is the same yet different at each Centre Point of the Life.

I have divided my share into 4 pieces, first briefly, my herstory of my 9 years
in LA, second my relationship with that land and people, thirdly I offer
another perspective of letting go and these times and finally I speak on the
true 'Place' we seek and why indeed I have come to Avalon. ~
 

1. My Herstory in Los Angeles:

I came to Los Angeles at 23 years old still with 'me feets' in both worlds: one
still walking in what I was 'undreaming' from my karmic psychic and genetic
imprints --- what I came to detox and heal on behalf of my family and the
communities I was born into ===> and the other foot moving towards the
awakening whirls of the dreaming awake, the transcendental paradigm which is
still truly dawning into the manifested world.  I was in various realms of the
former, via my life in marketing, sales, pr, copyrighting, professional
organizing, etc. --- while in the latter realm, I simultaneously worked very
steadfastly and quite deeply on my emotional body healing via jungian/ depth
therapy, inner child work, shame and trauma clearing, rebirthing, all kinds of
physical and energetic body balancing via macrobiotics, yoga, etc. etc. .. I
was linked into the 12-step movement and all aspects of the adult recovery
scene, etc.  And I was very involved w/ John Bradshaw and Marianne Williamson
and ended up working indirectly for the latter thru her Los Angeles Centre for
Living, and helped produce Aids Ride Across America.

By 27-29 years old things became culminated, and the process accelerated my
consciousness, to where I could say I was loving mySelf and also healing the
outer world thru my inner Quest...  I ended up facilitating Course In Miracles
Groups --- and soon thereafter, getting involved with an invisible
'lightworker' movement that taught the principals of 'mastery, choice and
intention' through  'Light Beings' from a realm out of dimensionality... and
the Reality of this was something so sacred and true to my CORE, that I cannot
even begin to try to explain or prove it, just suffice to say that all our
lives (100 or so souls) changed, or rather returned, to an understanding of
Love that was palatable and life transforming in all possible and imaginable
ways, and was very demonstrative individually and collectively ...

The Initiations took a greater road from there on out.  I lived in the
Hollywood Hills, in Beachwood Canyon, right by the Annie Basant Lodge in those
years.  There were amazing synchronicities of how the Ancient-Future encodings
of Lemuria and beyond were in the earth grid in the City of Angels.... and how
my psychic gifts and chakrahs opened to an understanding of what my 'tribe' was
up to in that sacred city of wonder, and on that very special 'always changing'
landscape.  After I 'graduated' from the Light Beings' 'trainings', I then
began to gather a loosely informal group of Initiates and Seekers and founded
our Work as 'The Lights of the Round Table'.  We held monthly Full Moon and
Equinox and Solstice ceremonies for the 2 years prior to my coming here in June
of 99.  We did lots of Work on the 'grid' and anchoring in our awareness and
compassion for the issues confronting our world and as it outpictured in Los
Angeles.  Yes, this was truly a time of duality, what we were 'holding' and
what was still seemingly happening 'out there'.~

I explain all of this as briefly, yet as detailed, as I can, to give you some
background and some sense of my journey, to be now Here.
 

2. Why I still 'love LA'

So, let me now put forth that:
    ~ I do NOT think that LA is 'less' of a vortex of power, than Glastonbury
--   I however find the frequencies -different- and I also see parallels in
their respective spiritual communities.  In the realms that I walked, even
before the 'lightwork' days, I found LA to be a microcosm and a Mecca for
healing many global issues facing our planet.  In the recovery movements, I
found a willingness to face generations of deep psychic sicknesses that I
believe is profound and even more 'out' in mainstream life than anywhere.
Marianne used to lecture 1-2 times a week.  These kinds of LARGE groups have
been meeting everywhere in LA since it's Western Development, since the early
days of it's establishment.  The Hollywood Sign Hill, which is the apex of the
major vortex that starts a phi spiral at the Hollywood Bowl, is one of the
most powerful energy spots I have experienced in the world, and the development
of that hill was founded as a community by a bunch of underground mystics and
theosophists.  The fires, floods, earthquakes, OJ, and the riots---I was there
for it all, and in my humble estimation, it really changed the collective
psyche's relationship w/ each other and with Nature... in a very authentic and
beautifully deepening way.

(I do not envision that land falling in the ocean  I see some changes, and I
see MANY leaving ALL citadels where the false matrixes of control greed and
separation are created for us to believe in not enough... I see many leaving it
all, the old world lies, and walking 'back to the garden'... but I see it
happening with Power and Ease, like a new-age birth~! )

Like everywhere, the 'Cultural Creatives' are hidden in the midst and the mists
of some of the surface lives... The individuals I have met in Los Angeles, even
in 'regular' life, have a 'deep sense' in their bodies.... because of these
collective events and the popularity of recovery and new-age principals, some
of the most enlightened people I know lead very very integrated lives in those
realms, and still have 'both feets' like golden bridges of the coming dawn.  My
opinion it is the simple workers in the arts and entertainment industry that
hold a lot of the higher-ground 'space' in LA.

And I remember YOU are holding your light there-in.... and I know so so many
amazingly adjusted and stable souls that are courting their love and truth thru
the realms of Hollywood.

And didn't you do this kind of 'mini-producing' in Glastonbury?
 

3. Letting go, Current Cosmic Energies ~

For me, the yuppie games of my own insanity, came to a head at a certain stage
over 3 years back, cuz I realized that my 'talented and gifted' 'tag' as a
child had just made me more traumatized by 'buying out' into the 'game' --- it
had to do w my inner child, family and genetic wounds around survival... my
onion had been peeled and peeled, and I wound out those layers and the spiral
literally bottomed out, and I had to 'empty rice bowl' in order to rebuild from
a more suitable foundation.  I do NOT think that is the required course for
most, it has to do with my darmah, destiny, astrology --- literally the oracle
of -my- life.  I had to really let go and surrender to understand where my
Worth lay.  I indeed jumped off the cliff like a fool, only to be caught by
angels and have survived most of this Fall to Earth.

I feel that we will all be living in stranger and stranger energetic times from
here on out, and that the Land and our connection to it will indeed be -one-
key to unlocking the mysteries of the New Reign of Reality that is obviously
upon us.  There is no way 'out' but IN, in my cosmology, and that is why my
alliance with the Goddess and Pagan religions has been a natural and organic
remembrance to what I call the Ancient Future, being fully awake in all
dimensionalities.  I feel another key for adjusting to the new cosmic
vibrations of our End Times, the end of the split mind and the Return to the
Whole Spiral of Reality ~ ~ another key, is for each soul to follow their
Mystery... their Living Oracle.  For me, it was a return to the Sacred Artist
as a focus, and as a deeper devotion.

All the other 'tools' I learnt that I tossed to the wind, they are all being
dropped back in, but from a deeper commitment to how I can use them and be of
Service to Life and Humanity.
 

4. Why I left LA, and why I have come to Avalon ~

So now I will also offer:
    ~ LA -did- get hard on me, in the end.  But I do NOT think it was LA, it
was "=MY= LA", just like I didn't come here to be in Glastonbury but to find MY
Avalon, it was a deep personal return to my own unwinding story and pivotal in
the meaning of my life and the stories that have served it's remembrance of
Self in the larger, transpersonal Life.  I know that LA is a safe place for
many, but it in the end represented the end of my 9 year sojourn, and that wave
was collapsing in my own world, in the outpictured landscape of my own soul's
mind.  I had to come here to my Tower to return to a new wellspring of my
inspiration.  For 3 years I have been walking off the grid to this Place, and
it truly is not a physical realm where I live now.  This is new terrain, and I
have worked hard to get here.

AND YET
    ~ the great paradox is that it also IS about this land, at once.  I know my
Destiny now lies here, for now, and I my training is to follow the leads and
synchronicities, to trust the revelations of all my senses.

In closing, I would like to share the following passage which I wrote about
what that unfolding has been, for me, as it has revealed itself in the past few
weeks:

"I know that this Land is a Mystery of my Soul and that it holds the Keys of my
own unfolding, for my writing and for the Pieces of the Diamond Body that I
came here to re-veal... I have had many experiences validating me in this Truth
over the past month... a deep return to an even greater Knowing of "my Avalon"
~ and my inheritance with these Realms ... like, when I was in the South of
France, Isis spoke to me telepathically in a very new way, when I was alone for
3 days, and literally I now know, the COURAGE TO WALK ALONE ~ is it's own
greatest reward.  My 'doubting voice' is nearly muted at this point, and I am
trusting even more deeper my own reasons for doing what I do, the way I do it,
and where ~ it is all part of my own Self-Mission in the Mysteries of the Eras
of this planet which are now unfolding to the next phase... it is sublime,
deep, revelatory and very much Self-loving... sometimes I thought I was a
little self-indulgent----but I know to trust that it is OKAY---I have this
experience of a return to begin a Royal Priestess... and making less excuses
for my Royalty.  What I know, the keys I hold, to revere my own Worth and the
Initiations I have gone thru, throughout time and space ~ it is important for
me to Self-recognize in these ways.  Not above another.... but as a participant
in the Awakening."

~*~*~*~*~
 

I have NO CLUE if this has helped you sister... I have always found that I
share what I share and people get what they get from it.  I cannot presume to
know what you needed to hear, or what advise you need from me.  If any of my
own story resonates or can assist your own process, take it and turn it around
for your own winding, unwinding story of remembering Greater Love.  All I have
written here, is a part of my own Work and so this question P. put to me,
is another piece in my own alchemical puzzle.

In service and devotion
your sister
seeing us all
enfolded
in Her Wings

~
Julie, Jewels